TAMFERMABLES TV: That devil showed up, but she used her daughter, one of my nieces, to lure me in. And I wrote her email and told her I'm going to tell the truth because that violated me. She hurt me. Oh, men don't get hurt? Really? Real men feel pain. I don't know what tough men do. But I'm learning to express my emotions and deal with them. Like the day I feel centered, paranoid, but like I'm using my paranoid energy to communicate and kind of, you know, channel it over, you know. But I still have paranoia right now. That's what I feel. ⁓ joy, man. Listen to me. I tell you, that's probably every time I got the joy of the Lord. That's my strength. I'm always had that. I can always express that. Anger. Do I feel anger today? No, not really. And that's one of my specialties. Because sometimes you ever heard of righteous indignation? Look it up. If you never heard of it. Well, you can call it anger if you like. But there's two different words, righteous indignation, righteous indignation. Look it up. Or do a search, ⁓ anger versus righteous indignation. Try that. Because it's not always anger that I have. I righteous indignation. And those are some of my feelings that I do my best to stay in tune with these days. because I've learned they are strength, they are power, they are energy that could be used for the good instead of me using them in a negative. Like I say, by myself, like in here, nobody's bothering me. You know, if I was outside somewhere, it might be a different story. In the market, it might be a different story. You know, sometimes I just don't feel right being around people, you know, stuff like that. So... You know, because sometimes I'm paranoid behind, you know, I don't trust people. No, I don't. You ever been to prison? You understand it then. But nevertheless, you learn not to trust people. I've learned to trust the God in people and that should show. We should know them by their fruit. It should show. So, yeah, trusting people like that and stuff. ⁓ But when the devil came, like I said, they used their... Just stay with me, just follow me. We're gonna be good. And when I left home, I think she was like eight years old. And... just put that together. She didn't know me. Her mother put, you should get to know your uncle. You should get to know your uncle for her, man. Yes, she's a very exciting young lady. Oh man, beautiful, stuff like that. And I genuinely believe she wanted to meet her uncle. You know, I really do. And she needed some, she needed some fatherly love like most of my nieces and nephews and they knew that they could get it from me. I served discipline too. That's love. Some of the best kind of love, discipline. I remember I was working for the youth ministry. Some of them fathers, children, they were like, man, I need some discipline. sitting around in a group with them children. They were like, we need some discipline. Really? yeah, they invited me up for breakfast. Now I'm hungry. And then I don't mind, I need to get out and you know, out of the halfway house a day out was always a plus. You know, but it was so many traps and sneers and things of that nature. And, you know, I was a pretty gullible one and I was pretty stupid in the ways of society. I was away for 10 years and, you know, I knew the Bible. Man, I used to be slick in society. Man, it was like I dropped my books out of Good Jersey and I'm my lesson. I lost all that. Society had got by me. Those that one decade, People was, I was easy prey. Me. Not today. I don't play that.